Is almost over :(
Nothing big or too exciting but it has been a good time overall I guess. I like the relaxing, doing different things and whatever I want. I love that I get summers off. It is one of the greatest things. I've stayed close to home this summer, just a couple little camping outings and the city... though I'd love to travel further... maybe next summer... ugh... thats a long way off. I like to think that 'if I only could... then...' but thats a dumb way to think. I'll still be me no matter where I am. Though a little change of scenery would be nice from time to time.
Work starts again soon, I suppose in some ways it has, I think about it alot and I've been to my classroom starting to get organized... I'm still not 'pumped' for the new year, but I'm hopeful. Or trying to be. So that has to count. I miss my old school and people already, and its going to be strange not to see all my old students on the first day. I think I may actually miss them too.... crazy to think.
Anyway, random non-interesting post.... guess I'm not feelin too insightful today... maybe another day soon. I'll try not to wait 2 months...
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
change
So I would have to say that I am not a fan of change. I mean, maybe its more of a love/hate relationship. I like new challeges, fun experiences, new things... but at the same time change is difficult and its hard to see past the here and now. I am in the process of change. Its just a job change, but its enough. I'm emotional about it, more than I should be probably, in many ways its just a job. But in many other ways what I do is so much more than a job. There is time and effort invested in lives and relationships and to have to leave that and start over, over and over again is frustrating, and in many ways exhausting. Its hard to keep investing in new people and places instead of building on current ones... the thought of starting over again right now makes me tired. I need a fresh perspective. I need to embrace this change. I need to look forward. I need to not dwell on what has happened but move on. Its not easy. There is no closure.
Change can be difficult, I'm trying to think of it as exciting and new.
Cheers to starting over.... again. (at least in the job sense...)
Cheers to summer.... hurray for holidays!
H.
Change can be difficult, I'm trying to think of it as exciting and new.
Cheers to starting over.... again. (at least in the job sense...)
Cheers to summer.... hurray for holidays!
H.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
get lost.
Sometimes you have to get lost to find yourself.... ok so I heard it on a commercial tonight... I think it was an ad to go to Australia and get lost or something. But none the less it got me thinking.... I just wrote it all out and deleted it.... cause thats how I feel right now.
Friday, April 10, 2009
good friday
It is a good Friday... and it means so much more than a day off of work. I will count my blessings.
1. A God that loves me, despite wavering faith.
2. Forgiveness.
3. A family that is supportive.
4. Friends near and far, those that I see regularly, those that I communicate with often, those that come and go, those that have come and gone, they have all helped shape me into the person that I am.
5. A comfortable home.
6. A semi-stable for now job that I enjoy.
7. Helpful co-workers.
8. The ability to be a blessing to others.
9. Living in a safe and quiet community.
10. A beautiful niece... who deserves the world.
11. Students who are truly fun.
12. The ability to live comfortably and pay the rent without worry.
13. People who inspire me.
14. People who care, even those who are strangers.
15. Conviction to become a better person.
16. Hope for the future.
17. Thankfulness for the present.
18. A past that has shaped me.
19. My past travels and experiences.
20. Amazing, amazing, amazing, Grace.
1. A God that loves me, despite wavering faith.
2. Forgiveness.
3. A family that is supportive.
4. Friends near and far, those that I see regularly, those that I communicate with often, those that come and go, those that have come and gone, they have all helped shape me into the person that I am.
5. A comfortable home.
6. A semi-stable for now job that I enjoy.
7. Helpful co-workers.
8. The ability to be a blessing to others.
9. Living in a safe and quiet community.
10. A beautiful niece... who deserves the world.
11. Students who are truly fun.
12. The ability to live comfortably and pay the rent without worry.
13. People who inspire me.
14. People who care, even those who are strangers.
15. Conviction to become a better person.
16. Hope for the future.
17. Thankfulness for the present.
18. A past that has shaped me.
19. My past travels and experiences.
20. Amazing, amazing, amazing, Grace.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
circles
I want to be myself.
I don't know who that is.
I've always been a fairly reflective person, I can look back and analyze what has happened in my life, see what I learned from it, how it made me better or worse, and evaluate how it maybe could have been done differently. I've been stuck for some time. It is time to move forward. But how?
I'm stressed about the job hunt season... I pray for all to go well... I know what I want, and I'd like to know how it is all going to turn out.
I don't know who that is.
I've always been a fairly reflective person, I can look back and analyze what has happened in my life, see what I learned from it, how it made me better or worse, and evaluate how it maybe could have been done differently. I've been stuck for some time. It is time to move forward. But how?
I'm stressed about the job hunt season... I pray for all to go well... I know what I want, and I'd like to know how it is all going to turn out.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
days go by....
It has been a while between posts again... nothing out of the ordinary I guess. Here's what's goin on...
1. I am looking forward to Spring Break, if for no other reason than it will be Spring Break. I'm ready for a bit of a break, I'm feeling complacent in my work and it is time for refreshing...
2. I am very excited about 2 upcoming weddings...ok they are both not until May, but I am super happy for the couples and it should be a fun couple of weekends.
3. My job changes after Spring Break and I'm excited for that as well. It basically just changes in that I will be working a bit less, with the same group of kidlets. Some days I'm done 'teaching' at 1:30 and most days I'm done at 3:00... what will I do with all my free time??? lol....
4. With spring perhaps maybe on the way I'm excited to have a bit more free time, especially once the weather is nice.
5. I'm still hoping for a full time permanent position for next year and really really hoping that that will happen for me this time around.... please?? It would just be nice to not have to worry about it anymore...
6. I want to buy a bicycle for when it gets nice out...
7. I'm enjoying getting out and walking when the weather is nice, its more barable (I don't think I can spell that word) than forcing myself to go to the gym.
8. Today was boring... and is still boring...
9. Time seems to be going slowly right now... I'm not really sure why...
10. Time for a change of pace...
1. I am looking forward to Spring Break, if for no other reason than it will be Spring Break. I'm ready for a bit of a break, I'm feeling complacent in my work and it is time for refreshing...
2. I am very excited about 2 upcoming weddings...ok they are both not until May, but I am super happy for the couples and it should be a fun couple of weekends.
3. My job changes after Spring Break and I'm excited for that as well. It basically just changes in that I will be working a bit less, with the same group of kidlets. Some days I'm done 'teaching' at 1:30 and most days I'm done at 3:00... what will I do with all my free time??? lol....
4. With spring perhaps maybe on the way I'm excited to have a bit more free time, especially once the weather is nice.
5. I'm still hoping for a full time permanent position for next year and really really hoping that that will happen for me this time around.... please?? It would just be nice to not have to worry about it anymore...
6. I want to buy a bicycle for when it gets nice out...
7. I'm enjoying getting out and walking when the weather is nice, its more barable (I don't think I can spell that word) than forcing myself to go to the gym.
8. Today was boring... and is still boring...
9. Time seems to be going slowly right now... I'm not really sure why...
10. Time for a change of pace...
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
for the love of lists
Ya... stolen from the facebook phenomenon.... whatev... now its also a blog entry.
Once you've been tagged, you're supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits or goals about yourself. At the end, choose people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you it's because I want to know more about you.
OK OK... this one is really making the rounds! I'm not taggin anyone.... so there crazy tags....
1. Winter sucks. I don't like the snow. I don't like the cold. I don't like winter. I live in the wrong province... or perhaps country.
2. I worry too much. About absurd things.
3. I like my job. Even on a bad day I can step back and say that I like what I do... despite complaining, being annoyed, and the challenges it entails.
4. I have been to South Africa, London, Haiti, Dominican Republic, Mexico, Jamaica, and a number of American States... this is not enough places in my opinion!... I have lots of places that I would like to visit, on the shortlist are Mexico (again), more of Europe, Greece in particular, AFRICA over and over again, Australia and New Zealand, Central and South America.... pretty much everywhere... yup... I'd like to go on some trips! (though I haven't travelled in a long time... and mostly just think about it... I'm all talk)
5. I went to school in Denver for a while.... it was amazing. Loved it.
6. I have 2 degrees. BGS. BEd.... this makes me smart enough to teach apparently.
7. I love being sarcastic. And I love it when people GET sarcasm.
8. I have some "favorite places in the world" (so far) listed in my head. Top 2 are THE VALLEY, and a particular farm in SA. I hope to add some more to my list.... eventually.
9. I like to cook, I love cookbooks. I'm a rachelray fan.
10. My favorite color is orange... with red coming in at a close second... though I would rarely if ever wear either of these colors.
11. Shoes are awesome. I love shopping for them in particular and will pretty much buy any pair I like within reason.... but they have to be comfy.
12. I can be shy in some situations... but I don't like being shy.
13. People see me as a quiet person...even though I don't really think that I am all that quiet most of the time.
14. I like to think before I talk. When I say something it usually matters. (see #13) I think more people should practice thinking before speaking sometimes. (pet peeve I guess)
15. I've had pretty much the same hairstyle for the last 15 years or more.... I think thats kinda sad....
16. I have diverse groups of friends... they come from different worlds and views... it would be weird to have them all together in the same place... maybe... maybe thats just what I think... perhaps they would get along great!
17. I live by myself. And I like it that way. Most of the time.
18. I am the most indecisive person that I know. I suck at making decisions big or small... except maybe shoes...
19. I'm a fan of TV... in particular Greys, Survivor, and usually House. Thursday nights are made for TV.
20. I don't particularly like calling people on the phone, but I like when people call me. I'm a little weird that way.
21. I'm not sure I'd enjoy living in a city... I kinda like the small town. I can't imagine having to get up every morning and drive in traffic or take a bus.
22. I like driving around for no apparent reason.
23. I have an elephant collection that started when I was a kid. I think I have pretty much enough. Don't buy me elephants unless you buy me a bigger house first... haha. But there are some really nice ones....
24. I wish I knew the future. I wish I could fast-forward and see whats going to happen.... or maybe I could change it if I don't like it.
25. 25 is a long list! Runnin out of stuff to talk about....
Once you've been tagged, you're supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits or goals about yourself. At the end, choose people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you it's because I want to know more about you.
OK OK... this one is really making the rounds! I'm not taggin anyone.... so there crazy tags....
1. Winter sucks. I don't like the snow. I don't like the cold. I don't like winter. I live in the wrong province... or perhaps country.
2. I worry too much. About absurd things.
3. I like my job. Even on a bad day I can step back and say that I like what I do... despite complaining, being annoyed, and the challenges it entails.
4. I have been to South Africa, London, Haiti, Dominican Republic, Mexico, Jamaica, and a number of American States... this is not enough places in my opinion!... I have lots of places that I would like to visit, on the shortlist are Mexico (again), more of Europe, Greece in particular, AFRICA over and over again, Australia and New Zealand, Central and South America.... pretty much everywhere... yup... I'd like to go on some trips! (though I haven't travelled in a long time... and mostly just think about it... I'm all talk)
5. I went to school in Denver for a while.... it was amazing. Loved it.
6. I have 2 degrees. BGS. BEd.... this makes me smart enough to teach apparently.
7. I love being sarcastic. And I love it when people GET sarcasm.
8. I have some "favorite places in the world" (so far) listed in my head. Top 2 are THE VALLEY, and a particular farm in SA. I hope to add some more to my list.... eventually.
9. I like to cook, I love cookbooks. I'm a rachelray fan.
10. My favorite color is orange... with red coming in at a close second... though I would rarely if ever wear either of these colors.
11. Shoes are awesome. I love shopping for them in particular and will pretty much buy any pair I like within reason.... but they have to be comfy.
12. I can be shy in some situations... but I don't like being shy.
13. People see me as a quiet person...even though I don't really think that I am all that quiet most of the time.
14. I like to think before I talk. When I say something it usually matters. (see #13) I think more people should practice thinking before speaking sometimes. (pet peeve I guess)
15. I've had pretty much the same hairstyle for the last 15 years or more.... I think thats kinda sad....
16. I have diverse groups of friends... they come from different worlds and views... it would be weird to have them all together in the same place... maybe... maybe thats just what I think... perhaps they would get along great!
17. I live by myself. And I like it that way. Most of the time.
18. I am the most indecisive person that I know. I suck at making decisions big or small... except maybe shoes...
19. I'm a fan of TV... in particular Greys, Survivor, and usually House. Thursday nights are made for TV.
20. I don't particularly like calling people on the phone, but I like when people call me. I'm a little weird that way.
21. I'm not sure I'd enjoy living in a city... I kinda like the small town. I can't imagine having to get up every morning and drive in traffic or take a bus.
22. I like driving around for no apparent reason.
23. I have an elephant collection that started when I was a kid. I think I have pretty much enough. Don't buy me elephants unless you buy me a bigger house first... haha. But there are some really nice ones....
24. I wish I knew the future. I wish I could fast-forward and see whats going to happen.... or maybe I could change it if I don't like it.
25. 25 is a long list! Runnin out of stuff to talk about....
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