I can't believe its been 2 months since I last wrote on this blog. I am one of those bloggers where it dosn't really matter if anyone reads it I guess, and I'm fairly certain there are no regular readers anyway.
So the school year is almost over, I thought this time may never get here. I definitly have some mixed emotions about this experience. It has been hard. Definitly the hardest job I have ever had in my life so far. I have been stretched, drained, frustrated, and in between there have been bits that have been ok. I've never had a job where I went home defeated, and exhausted, almost every day. A job where I have cried before work, during work, and after work because many times it was just too much, I felt alone, and I didn't know what to do to to make it work better. This is definitly the most I have ever questioned my decision to teach. I have also learned a lot. Grown a lot as a person and as a professional. In the big picture I know that this has been a good experience for me and has shaped me in some way. Hopefully I will take something good from this experience. And so it is mixed feelings that I have in leaving the school I am at. Even though my future is very uncertain at this point (I may be unemployed very soon) I have a definite peace about my decision not to apply for the second part of this term, and somehow I know that things will work as they should. 5 more days.
Otherwise things are ok. I'm happy that it is summer, I like having no real plans and I hope to fill my days with some fun and relaxing activities see what happens or what I am driven to for the fall. I know for sure that I need to move soon though. I really really need my own space. It'll depend on the job for fall a bit and if I maybe decide to go away for a while next winter or something which is an idea rolling around in my head.
I'll try not to wait 2 months to post, and with summer here I will have more time. The end is in sight. Peace all.
