So, it is another new year, though I very much don't feel that January is the best time to start a new year. For me, the new year begins in September, that is when school starts, thats when there are changes a brewing. Though I suppose change can happen at any time. Still. January is not my start to a new year. The calendar sort of wins on this one however and I guess it is 2008. Whether I like it or not. The holidays were good. Nothing really out of the ordinary or exciting but good. I stayed home, we did all the normal family things and that was that. I should have taken a warm vacation for the second week.... that would have been a good idea... maybe next year. Now it is back to work again. This week was a bit of a shock to the system, it is so busy at work, and with 2 weeks off I had a chance to forget about the stress... I was very quickly reminded however. There are constant challenges in my profession and I'm sure that it does or will get easier with more experience... there is no way to jump through some special hoop that will make me experienced... I just have to pay my dues and keep working at it. There always seems like there is so much to do and so little time. I often wonder what it would be like to have a more 'normal' 9 to 5 job where you can just show up, work, and go home, and not carry planning, marking, and to do lists in your brain all the time. Maybe these jobs don't really exist, but in my mind they definitly do, and some days a job like that would be nice. In the end I still enjoy my work and my chosen profession and can't wait till it gets easier... and somewhat more manageable time wise. 50 hour weeks are long. I know there are people out there who work far more... but for me... 50 hour weeks are long. In general there is not much more in my life besides work, and most days I don't feel like there is time for much more, but then there are days that I long for more. I suppose there is a need to find a balance between the two. I know I could handle more. I know that I would benefit from more.
Yes. I'm still living at home. I will buy a house this spring or summer. I think this is my final and best decision. I have a down payment ready... so now I just bide my time... and hope for the job... without the permanent job I will probably rent. I just have to make it through the winter driving over the next few months... yikes... I hate the driving from the sticks... but I've done it before and I can do it again, I just won't enjoy it too much.
I once again feel like I am churchless. This is a complicated issue in my life that I am tired of dealing with.... I need to suck it up.
So here's to a new year. I'm believing for a good one. My best one.
Looking Forward.
H.
